Lost

I don't know where I'm.
Am I floating up or sinking down?
Am I going somewhere or drifting away?

Please the stars, please shine the light.
I'm losing myself and being flood away.
Please the stars, please give me some warmth.
I'm now freezing cold without any life.
Please the stars, please show me the way.
I might now at the edge of the galaxy or at the entrance of the blackhole.

never

You tell me I'll love you someday.
But I have to tell you that that day would never come.

Please don't wait for the rain to pour up
and for my heart to love you.

new me

People told me if I want to change myself
I need to change my hairstyle or hair color,
change the make up, change the clothes.
That's true, those things can change my appearance
but I would be the same old me from that process.

I believe the only thing that can change people is attitude.

scared

It's so dark here
I am scared to dead
Uncertain futere make it's darker ahead
Every step I take, I keep wondering if
I am walking to the rainbow or heading to abyss

leave

When I leave home,
there are so many things I need to bring with me;
mobile phone, wallet, watch, notebook and pen.
But I always leave my 'self' at home
since I'm not gonna use it.

Behave myself

People told me to behave myself
I am not a good girl for them because I cannot pretend
I don't know how to smile when I feel sad
and I don't know how to act friendly when my heart filled with hatred
Being good for them is by acting like what I am supposed to do

I am rotten inside
but it's better than being empty-skull puppet.
I am not favored
but who cares?

rain in my eyes

Rain in my eyes cannot flood the earth
It cannot water the plants or wash away the dirt.
Rain in my eyes seems to be useless, and
so do myself.